motivation

Yesterday I finished my resume and cover letter, and then after work I went to Telus and got my own cell phone so that I'm not dependent on my work phone to stay in contact with people. Its one more step to closure to change and not feeling dependent on my current job. I faxed my resume this morning to the province for an Office Manager position for Manitoba family services and housing. Its a $40k salary but they are looking for someone with a degree as well as experience. Granted I'm one course away from qualifying but I figured I would give it a shot. Its not like I NEED this particular position but it would be nice if it works out:)

Once I did that I felt a lot more motivated to actually follow through with others things I want to change in my life. Mainly my appearance. I am NOT happy currently with my weight, being almost 40lbs above your ideal weight isn't what I call great.

Marcia and I made appointments for this Thursday at the U weight loss clinic. I realize that I have failed at too many diets and exercise plans in the past but I'm hoping that if I'm accountable to someone that I might be able to stick to this for more the a few weeks. They only want you to loose 2lbs per week which means I'll be lucky to drop 15lbs for Mexico but it would be better then nothing and I would definitely feel a lot better in a bathing suit.

I going to go tanning after work today and am going to start going on a regular basis again since I have the minutes paid for already. Being tanned rather then pasty white will help me fell not so much like a beached whale.

My goal is that in 4 months my body will resemble Charisma Carpenter's. One she is my height and has a similar body type (aka curvy) and two she's gorgeous.