Making order

Well the last attempt at 'habit forming' failed YET AGAIN! I will be doing soooooo well and then bam something derails me and I'm back to doing nothing.

Graeme started renovating the bathroom and entrance almost a month ago and we still haven't got the house back in order. I'm also having a difficult time finishing my never ending laundry so my rooms a mess. Sadly once my house is in disorder I hide in my room and haven't been cooking all that much since I'm avoiding my kitchen, which means that I've been buying too much take out (at lunch & supper) and eating unhealthy.

K is joining the UofW's gym to play squash with Mike on Tuesdays & Thursdays so I said that I would join too and work out on Mondays & Wednesdays with her. Not sure if that will be enough for me so I should probably go by myself on other days but at least if I have a work out buddy for 2 days a week I should be able to set a routine! I would still like to loose that 30lbs for Mexico which is just over 3 months away so hopefully joining this gym and acknowledge it on here will get me going again!

About a month ago K,myself and a few others went out to a bar opening and one of the friends was Mike, her ex-boyfriend from before I met her and who is now one of her close friends. Apparently I managed to impress and he texted after he left wanting to know if it was okay to ask me out. When K asked what I thought about it I didn't have much of an opinion since I've always viewed friends' exes as off limits but she assured me that it would be totally fine and since I was trying to put myself out there more I said that I would be willing to go on a date with him. So far we've done one date a week for the last 4 weeks and things are going well. Last week (date 4) I finally got my first kiss at the end of the night. I have to say I very relieved that it finally happened as I was starting to worry that he would take too long and I would start to see him as just a friend. Ever date we go on we have no problem talking, the first date we were together for 6hours start talking and the following were much the same but everything was kept so platonic that I was afraid that I would loose interest. When he kissed me before he left the car on Thursday last week I was left with butterflies so I am happy. And look forward to seeing where things go.

He's still moving pretty slow though as we aren't getting together til this Friday for lunch as our schedules don't really mesh. Its a bit confusing for me since my last relationship went sooooo much faster and you got to wonder if someone really likes you why aren't they pushing to spend more time with you but maybe this is good for me. I just guess I wouldn't mind taking it slow but I would like to see more of him/get more comfortable in the relationship. In a month we've saw each other only four times! it just seems too slow. and god would I like to be intimate with someone again! not having sex when you've NEVER had sex is one thing, not having it once you have is completely different!!! I know what I'm missing!!!

But since my house is still a disaster I can't very well invite him over and he isn't moving anywhere fast in asking me to his place so apparently I'm going to have to be patient....or start cleaning my house already!!!!!

Yesterday he changed his facebook relationship status from single to 'its complicated'. I'm still deciding on whether I should be like 'whatever' or really excited.