I disgust myself

My house has moved passed mess into filth. And all though I have 3 other roommates that should care too and make an effort to clean I KNOW that that doesn't happen as they are worse slobs then me and if I don't do something quick its just going to get worse and worse.

We removed the 'closet' downstairs but haven't installed hooks to hang the coats or a basket to put the shoes in. Nor has Graeme installed the new base boards or I painted. The litter is over due for a change. The bathroom needs to be scrubbed down, base boards finished, painted and things put back in. The kitchen is overflowing with garbage & recycling & the dishes never seem to be done no matter how many times I wash them. The living room hosts heaps of clean AND dirty laundry, as does my room. And the whole house desperately needs a good vacuum, wash & dusting!

Yet knowing all of this I continue to avoid everything by heading straight to my room, popping in a DVD of the Gilmore girls and watching TV for the entire night, or leaving the house completely.

I'm tempted to call in sick just so I can get some cleaning done as I apparently am not doing it in the evenings!

The worst thing is I KNOW that if one thing out of place ESPECIALLY my home life, it throws off everything else for me.

Friday night I'm going to K's for a bonfire party, Saturday I agreed to go for breakfast & shopping with K & Mike so unless I do something about it tonight or tomorrow evening I'm left with doing it on Sunday.

I wish my roommates would show some initiative too. granted we all stay mostly in our rooms but that doesn't mean we all aren't affect the cleanliness in the rest of the house. Graeme will do stuff if I get him in a motivated mood or nag him enough and once and awhile I'll come home to a clean kitchen that James was responsible for. Olivia on the other hand has never cleaned things outside of their room. I hate that I sound like the nagging bitch! But seriously!! we are all grown ups. Why must i be the one to take charge? If I don't make an effort things stay dirty, hence the filth we are currently living in. Very frustrated. I can't have company as I'm completely ashamed of the state of our house!

not to mention Davide and Marcia use things like this against me in arguments to prove that i truly don't contribute to our home