Disappointed in myself

I have to say that I continue to amaze myself with my abilities to procrastinate. I stayed in the city over the long weekend, while the rest of the family went back to The Pas, first because I had plans to go to the spa with Kristin on Saturday morning but also because I am very behind on cleaning the house and wanted to organize my life.

I went to the spa with Kristin but aside from taking three days to finish five loads of laundry I didn't do anything! Oh I emptied the litter around 9pm last night once everyone was home again, something that I could have done if I had gone with them.

Currently outstanding:

1. Bathroom - wash floors, tub, sink & clean out toilet; organize shelves and through out old/empty containers.
2. Kitchen - wash floors; clean out fridge & pantry; take out garbage & recycling; dishes; clean off table & top of microwave; clean stove and replace aluminum foil.
3. Living room - put away laundry; set up futon and put away bedding; vacuum
4. Stairways and front entrance - put away/organize shoes and coats, wash floors; vacuum stairways
5. Bedroom - vacuum floor; put away laundry; organize closet and dressers; sort and throw out/shred unnecessary paper work; buy/setup book shelves; make bed; take old clothes to 2nd hand thrift store

I would really like to get everything done by this weekend so that I could start some general renovations like paint touch ups, not to mention replacing the floor in the bathroom (when I can afford it!) and painting/staining the deck.

I'm well aware of the fact that if I were more organized at work and in my personal life I would be alot happier and perhaps stress free as I could see some direction and yet knowing this I continue to put things off. I seem compelled to sabotage any efforts I make towards helping myself. My favorite tactic is grabbing a novel, whether new or an old favorite, and sitting for hours reading that rather then working on what should. This weekend I went through 3 and 1/2 novels plus took too many naps.

I know I need to smarten up. I'm considering making some career/life changes in the next year. Possibilities include going back to school to upgrade so I can apply for the education faculty and become a teacher, go overseas to teach English in Taiwan, or move back to The Pas, get a job for a while to start fresh. For any of these to be a possibility I need to get my act together and yet I insist on doing nothing! I'm not sure what needs to happen before I actually make an effort to change.